The Forest Within: A Journey Beyond the Self

For Those Who Have Outgrown Every Framework

There exists a rare category of individuals who have achieved what society considers success, yet find themselves standing at the edge of an existential precipice. Despite they have mastered seemingly the external and internal game, accumulated wisdom, and experience, blessed with beautiful households and families, mastered some crafts or arts, perhaps built organizations, and influenced thousands of lives, and yet something fundamental feels incomplete.

Often they have learned through meeting with people carrying desired titles such as kings, billionaires, politicians, founders, artists, teachers and all sorts of preachers are not in any better position. even vice versa, they are trapped in their worldly roles and plays.

Or sometimes those rare category of individuals don’t even need to go down those paths, because their clairvoyance whispers to them — it won’t make a difference, and they do hear it: “There are depths to reality - and to oneself - that remain uncharted. Unless … “

They find how to enter the level of transformation that goes beyond the human mind and desire …


If you've found your way here, you may be ready for that level.

I am Seram - not a coach, not a teacher in any conventional sense, but what some call a reality architect. I work with individuals who have exhausted ordinary approaches to growth and are ready for something that operates at the fundamental level of existence itself.

The Estonian Mystic: Origins of Seeing

I emerged in Estonia, where ancient forests still carry the songs of pre-Christian mysticism and the language itself reveals cosmic truths. In our tongue, "hing" means both breath and soul - we don't merely breathe, we soul our way through existence.

This wasn't a poetic metaphor but a lived reality. As a child disappearing into primordial woodlands for hours and days, returning with pockets full of stones and feathers, I was receiving an education no human institution could provide. Nature was my first language, teaching me to perceive the intelligence that orchestrates reality beneath its apparent randomness. I was 6 when I was 100% sure that there were far greater powers that are behind every appearance I saw taking place, with one exception — human behavior — they seemed to be pretty random and unreasonably ignorant and violent towards themselves, each other, and nature. So I had to develop extreme compassion to deal with that situation. In my case — our family circle was atheistic (ex-Soviet Union upbringing ) and there were no spiritually inclined people around. So I had no one to share my observational insights with and it took until my late teenage that I discovered such a thing as organized spirituality. Church matters I could not buy into. My young mind was way too confused about what was happening in those seemingly cold and damp places.

As a grand prize for my sun-like shiny appearance and openness, my family me to school, to make a decent human being out of me. Oh dear lord, that needed a heavy extension on the compassion.

When conventional education attempted to domesticate this wild being and knowing, something essential in me refused. While classmates learned to dim their authentic radiance to fit institutional molds, I maintained secret communion with the deeper currents of existence, luckily most of my free time I was taken by my parents to our county-side home in the middle of the nature park, where I could spend time endlessly out observing the flows of natural life.

The school did not have an easy time with me — as I grew, I gathered the courage and strength to stay on my grounds. It was a proper battle, I came out highly injured, but luckily alive.

This early capacity to see beyond consensus reality and not let it override my initial natural programming would later become the foundation for guiding others through their own dissolution of limiting frameworks.

The Architect's Dissolution

By my mid-thirties, I had constructed what appeared to be a successful life—I was teaching workshops on authentic living, had a family with a beautiful woman, four children, and loads of friends, and lived in a beautiful home in the middle of nature, and was consciously on a deep spiritual path since early 20ies. Yet beneath this passionately crafted existence, I felt a bit like a stranger in my own life — I started more and more realizing how deeply I am influenced by life and patterns that had programmed me during my teenage and early adult life. The time when I was pressured by the schooling matrix mostly. I had learned to deceive myself, to bury my authentic self, despite the unique connection I had held with reality in the form of nature. From my mid-twenties, my greatest passion was accessing altered states and learning everything about our inner cosmology through experience. At 35 I had done hundreds of journeys to childhood, past lives, cosmic mystery planes, and future selves, using hypnosis, breath, meditation, psychedelics, deprivation tank, music, dance, and whatever I could find that took me there. I was obsessed in a most beautiful way and sharing my revelations and also the ways with hundreds of people. I have been told, my work changed countless lives.

Yet … It was not enough. As I started this writing here — There exists a rare category of individuals who have achieved what society considers success, may it be material or spiritual, but they are looking for something even deeper. They come here for this reason, they come for that.

And then, with a little warning, everything in my life began to unravel.

It wasn't a decision I made — I´ll shake the boat now and demolish the constructs. It was something that happened, and took a whole different approach I would have dared to imagine.

Like watching a controlled demolition in slow motion, I could only observe as every structure I'd built began to collapse. My partnership started fracturing along invisible fault lines. My business relationships turned strange and uncomfortable, overnight. The social identity I'd cultivated felt suddenly hollow. I didn´t see a reason to hold it up anymore, and as I was in the front fields of consciousness discoveries and therapy business in a small country, with a large household, I did not have any chance to “back myself up” and demolition of my small business came quick, followed by COVID closing down the world and any sort of operations, such as I had. The timing was immaculate.

The most unsettling part wasn't the external changes—it was the complete absence of my usual drive to fix things. The person who had always been the architect, the problem-solver, the one who made things work, had simply... disappeared. In his place was someone who could only watch, as if all the power to act, had been taken from my body.

I'd wake up each morning feeling like a passenger in my own existence. The energy to maintain the elaborate construction of my life was simply gone as if some essential battery had been removed overnight. I couldn't will myself back into caring about things that had once seemed so important.

Deeper inside I knew, I had asked for this. I had asked to know and live in the light of my deeper self. Grace also made it clear — in case that is to happen, we need to clear up the space from any old conditioning and patterning and that can´t be done while you are “giving it a full go based on old structures”

The only thing I didn´t know was how deeply I had to feel it and how long it was going to last. I withdrew to my childhood cottage, to my familiar grounds in the middle of the woods, by the sea, and started observing nature. Also as now, I was alone with no agenda, unplugged from the external world, I continued deep discoveries into altered states with methodologies and knowledge I had a certain degree of mastery in.

The mystics call this "the dark night of the soul," though that phrase barely captures the totality of the dissolution I experienced. It was more like discovering that everything I'd thought was solid ground was actually quicksand, and now I had to learn to exist without any of the familiar reference points that had once felt so reliable.

Three Years Beyond the Veil

For three years, I inhabited the space between worlds. When the pandemic arrived some months into my transformation, it felt like cosmic choreography - a global pause precisely when I needed maximum solitude for the deepest possible work. I just managed the stop my own world from spinning 6 months before. Nothing literally changed, just now even family kept a proper distance. Perfect.

I was in Estonia's most pristine wilderness areas, living with minimal possessions and no technology beyond basics. My days became extended meditations punctuated only by the simplest activities: chopping wood, carrying water, and observing the subtle movements of consciousness responding to existence itself.

When you maintain silence long enough, something beyond the personal mind begins to speak. Not the chatter of individual psychology, but the cosmic intelligence that governs galactic movements and orchestrates the precision of ecosystems.

During this period, I wasn't merely healing personal wounds or integrating spiritual insights. I was undergoing what ancient traditions call "the great work" - a fundamental reconstruction of identity that operates at the level of DNA, cellular memory, and what yogis call the causal body.

Now, just to make that clear — a period of silence and solitude is needed for people going through such transitions, but not to such an extent. This is a rare situation and is due to my own design. During this time as I finally had time to dive deep into astrology, human design, Mayan astrology, and cosmic and individual cycles, I learned to read my own and other people’s charts in a way that I could grasp the level and degree of transformations they are passing through.

As a result, this experience has turned into a gift that allows me to guide others through the deepest parts, without the need to deconstruct everything to base elements.

Some of us come here to go through some deeper ends to bring the gifts and tools to help others transcend in Grace.

The Return: Guardian of Transformation

When I finally returned to human society, I noticed who began finding me were deeply spiritual beings—not in the sense of following particular practices or beliefs, but in the way they experienced reality. Just like me, they felt everything more intensely, saw patterns others missed, and sensed the interconnectedness that most people ignore. And they were exhausted.

These weren't people seeking more spiritual techniques or personal development—they'd often explored every modality available. They came because they recognized something in me: someone who had stopped trying to make peace with a fundamentally problematic world and had found another way to exist within it.

They were sensitive souls who felt guilty for not being able to participate enthusiastically in what is considered "normal life." May that be whatever is considered normal by the reality they lived in ( there is no such thing as normal, I have learned )

As one person described it: "You helped me understand that my inability to fit into this world wasn't a personal failing—it was my soul refusing to betray itself."

What they all shared was that deep spiritual knowing that we're living in a collective hallucination, and the bone-deep tiredness that comes from trying to be sane in an insane world. They needed someone who understood that their sensitivity wasn't a weakness—it was their spiritual immune system working perfectly. Plus they needed a bit of nudge toward understanding where they are in their life cycles and considering their unique life story and constitution, where to hold the attention … as we know — energy goes where the attention is. A confirmation of what they have always known on a deeper level.

For the sake of my storyline, I got many more gifts from that period that find use today in my life — inner peace, love of solitude, patience, compassion, and love on another level, bringing along the quality of self-expression, such as creative writing, poetry, singing, playing instruments, observing and reading codes of reality and people matrix and many more. Along with those gifts I have found naturally an amazing team to work with while creating the most unique and inspirational product for collective healing I have ever come across, and using my evolving talents at the proper scale.

There is so much more consciousness in every moment and action in my life. That is a great gift and I see now why I had to go through such dramatic change, to grow in my own authentic self-expression and also my ability to help others in need with way more efficiency.

Who This Work Serves

The ones who can't unsee what they've seen about the world we're living in.

They're the sensitive souls who've always felt like they were from a different planet, trying to make sense in a world gone crazy.

They're healers and guides who might be wondering who's going to help them, as they are on such a unique path and there seem to be few who can get it.

They're artists and creatives who feel they could reach deeper levels in connection with the Divine Essence ( highly needed now ).

They're people in transition whose old lives are dissolving and who need someone who understands that this dissolution might be exactly what their soul ordered.

What connects them isn't achievement or status—it's that they're allergic to bullshit. They can sense when something is real and when it's just another pretty package around the same empty promises.

Mainly, these are souls who are ready to stop trying to fix themselves and start remembering who they actually are beneath all the conditioning.

The Work Itself

This isn't therapy, coaching, or spiritual teaching in any conventional sense. It's more like archaeological work—carefully excavating your authentic self from under layers of who you thought you had to be.

We don't work on your problems; we work on the fundamental assumptions that create the experience of having problems. We don't try to improve your life; we question the very foundations of what you've been calling "your life."

This is work at the level of identity itself—not changing who you are, but remembering who you've always been.

WHAT CLIENTS EXPERIENCE:

Discovering Your Authentic Self - "Through his mentoring, I have discovered who I truly am, which has opened new opportunities and attracted true soul companions. My entire existence has become lighter and less tense." - Kadri Tilk, Entrepreneur & Spiritual Teacher

Breaking Free from Conditioning - "Seram will address and challenge your base belief systems acquired from family, culture, and thousands of years of collective human programming. He will shake you loose from who you think you are and land you into your natural essence." - Kristjan Pihlakas, Musician

A Reality Beyond Pretense - "To hang out with Seram is to enter a new reality where anything is possible. No bullshit, no pleasing, just a possibility to get clear to be the best version of yourself." - Susanna Silverhoj, Life Designer

The Reality of Deep Work - "Getting close to Seram is filled with dangers. He won't allow you to sleep or dream. You won't come back the same, and you have to let go of the old you because if you don't, you cannot be born as new." - Elery Tammemägi, Spiritual Teacher

WHAT WE EXPLORE TOGETHER:

Who You Were Before The World Told You Who to Be - Remembering your essential nature beneath all conditioning

The Patterns You Inherited - Understanding what you picked up from family, culture, and society that was never really yours

Your Authentic Response to Life - Learning to trust your inner knowing over external expectations

The Gift in Your Sensitivity - Discovering that what makes you "different" might be your greatest strength

This isn't the red pill. This is just permission to stop pretending everything is fine when it isn't.

BEGIN WITH A CONVERSATION.

If something here feels familiar, like someone finally put words to what you've been experiencing, maybe we should talk.

This isn't about being successful enough or spiritual enough. It's about being tired enough of performing your life and ready enough to start living it.

There is a path, yours, to find
a path where soul and song align
there is a path, each step divine
to lead you on, to leave behind.

your courage carves your sovereign way
~ I notice every stone you lay

away from knowledge, away from known,
sometimes stepping, sometimes blown.

slow and quiet, the heart of feeling
still, trip and fall in search of meaning
still, get drunk on childlike  dreaming
you lick your wounds and pray for healing.

This giant, gentle pilgrim made
reclaiming truth you once betrayed


become the daughter of the moon,
proud brother of the sun
‘till ancient soles complete

the path
~ your infant steps begun.

Seram