The Journey of a Highly Sensitive Empath

My story is one of God’s great narratives; she has guided me through it.
It has been quite a ride. Books could be written about it and probably will be. But this story is not just about God and me; it’s meant to give you insight and spark critical thinking about what might be possible in your life.

The Great Challenge

My main issue in life has been handling my high sensitivity. When you meet me, I might not seem like the highly sensitive type. Life is full of contrasts, and we often reflect the opposite of what’s inside. We all struggle to balance polar opposites, reaping the benefits while trying to rise above the challenges.

Self-discovery is incredibly rewarding. It reveals the controversial nature of our world and the body-mind temple system we inhabit. Humanity is just beginning this journey.

Those who know themselves know the world. There is no other way. The world is a reflection of one’s mind and heart.

The Story

As a highly sensitive empath, I’ve always wanted to serve, to save the world, to help others, and to bring peace and happiness to nature and the planet. I’ve always known I’m here for something greater than myself. I’ve been searching for that unique contribution my entire life, looking from place to place, relation to relation, action to action, often perplexed.

I’ve lived my life holding the gas and brake pedals simultaneously. I strived for purposeful living, wanting to live fully, give freely, and share myself while also holding back, unsure if I could trust myself to share entirely. Even when I expressed my truth, I was sometimes punished. People’s perception of deeper truths is highly selective.

Over the years, I’ve learned to protect myself. Feeling everything all the time is overwhelming. When I was younger, it was scary, sad, confusing, and painful. Everyone else seemed okay with their lives and better at managing their emotions, while I was paralyzed by intense emotional situations, needing time to digest and let go of what I was experiencing.

Self-Medication

Before understanding worldly structures, I sensed the surrounding repression, separation, and suffering within my own being. I started numbing myself with food, sex, constant action, relationships, traveling, alcohol, drugs, and even psychedelics.

Substances helped me breathe, especially around other people. Being drunk felt like a vacation from carrying the weight of the world. My confusion about processing high stimulation led me to self-medicate to avoid overwhelming feelings.

Can High Sensitivity Be an Absolute Gift?

A few years ago, I started hearing the term “highly sensitive empath.” It took time for me to grasp its deeper meaning and really understand its hidden treasure -

Being an empath can be used to advantage in a multitude of creative and empowering ways.

That disconnection can lead to radical truth and infinite love.

This means that I need to arrange my life differently and see my challenges as gifts.
Highly sensitive empaths quickly see what’s unsustainable in others’ structures because they feel what everyone else feels. Significant changes are often resisted because they’re unsafe, and those who bring them may feel unappreciated.

This means that instead of being out there and trying to blend and fix issues by responding to other people's directions and emotional needs, we can use our talents to create new innovations that can take ourselves and others beyond the status quo.

THE UNSEEN

My deepest interest has always been the unseen world, the mystical powers that create, sustain, and guide this world.
I have spent several decades studying all kinds of supernatural phenomena from various points of view from east to west. Becoming a regression therapist allowed me to guide people on journeys into their early childhood memories, past lives, and even beyond earthly realities. I also spent over a decade discovering many different entheogenic medicines that infuse altered states of mind.

My practices of meditation, mindfulness, silence, breath, yoga, healing music, toning with voice, and forms of prayer have guided me in establishing a more permanent cosmic connection with the Creative Source.

In 2018, life gifted me with the greatest challenge so far. My life collapsed in all areas simultaneously, and I took a profound path of self-healing and reconstructing my health, identity, finances, relationships, purpose, and the way I related to the world. It was a total rebirth, one could say. It took several years to recover and again find my place in the world.

It was hard but totally worth it.

The deepest gift of that was that I could sit alone in the middle of pristine nature, giving time and space for my body-temple system to regenerate for almost three years. During that time, I realized that silence is our greatest teacher.

Brother Silence

Silence taught me that I had created all the issues in my life by using my mind improperly. It was a hard bone to swallow. Yet, very liberating. I could accuse the ignorance of society, pupils, the schooling system, and collective stupidity of not giving me the necessary, proper education on the subject from early on, yet that would fuel my victimhood.

Today, I remember that I knew where I would go before coming to Earth. I did it of my own free will, knowing the consequences and learning curve I would experience once there. However difficult they may be, there are rewards to reap beyond what the human mind can grasp.

GIFTS

You start getting gifts once you learn to connect again with the Creative Source within.
Happened to me. I was lost in my life, I’d say, from my early teenage years to my early 40s.

Well, what has changed?

I see how my childhood dreams about my life, once I grow up, I’d like to be … “ are starting to come true.
My days are filled with lightness, joy, laughter, and ease, and a lot of creativity pours in. Reality becomes malleable to my thoughts, feelings, and aspirations because it is directed and aligned from source to matter. I feel guidance in every step I take. I see how I can use everything that I already have to create an even deeper connection and balance and also share that wisdom and tools with others.

To be authentic means to be true to oneself. This is a very, very dangerous phenomenon. Rare people can do it. But whenever people do it, they achieve such beauty, grace, and contentment that you cannot imagine.
OSHO

We are all children on this 
playground of consciousness, 
all trying to figure out the game, 
to break into mechanics and 
see the parts that move it 
in such mystical ways. 

The inventor, the clock master
has its magical plays, 
to place parts in peculiar ways, 
so they'd create a vision of movement, 
an illusion of time and space, 
on the screen called life. 

This we is a soul of the clock, 
ancient and young at the same time,
going in spirals into eternity,
tick tack, tick tack … 
Creating the phenomenal world - the Game. 
That we is also me. 

That me, what I could feel and see, 
aah, that is the tricky one, 
a soul of the great mystery, 
everything and anything, 
depends where to peek in from, 
and where to place the label TRUTH. 

The truth is, that’s for sure. 
It simply is undeniable it is. 
Yet, no one can grasp … 

the truth, cause it's untouchable, 
only recognized in the ONE. 

Silence is the path 
that will take you beyond 
any thought, word, or action. 
Beyond anything that can carry the label “I". 
Silence is the closest friend of Truth. 

by Seram