“40” 14.11.2022
This body's stay here on planet earth is said to have reached the magical milestone of 40.
Sufi mystics claim it is the most magical and essential of all numbers. Why? Well, it's that simple, as in this world it is customary to say those who have experienced the secrets of this world but cannot put into words the indescribable.
My personal observational experience confirms this statement because something mystical and magical is happening in me, my life, and my nature and being. Beyond the words, I can only say.
It is emotional, it is experiential, it is ecstatic, and it is Divine.
Sufi mystics say that the reality here is created on 40 different levels, and by reaching this number, being open to the mysticism of this number, it is quite likely that significant mystical changes will take place in our lives, the experience of life, perception, and journey will change completely.
An extraordinary period in my life began with a mystical experience eight years ago, on 14.11.2016, when I received the book "The 40 Rules of Love" as a gift on the morning of my birthday while visiting friends in Italy. I opened the book and put him down after three days. By that moment, I had read quite a bit about mysticism and experienced firsthand many mysterious experiences. But by far, I could not have expected the existence of something that I sensed emerging in my depths while reading this story.
The following eight years have seen the expansion of this seed and the accompanying acceptance within itself. And it has been a cosmic ultra-complex process, challenging me relentlessly on all possible and impossible dimensions, angles, and whatever. This cosmic joke had written itself into the book of fate even before I appeared in this world. It was just waiting for its right timing. In retrospect, I can now see such "keys" by looking deeper into astrology. Understand the depth of the term rebirth.
The poet Rumi, whose birth story this book is based on, had never written a single poem and knew nothing of the Rumi that appeared in him. He had a different name and whole nature before he was born, in the middle of life in a human body—expansion into the depths of your true heart.
That kind of birth, a walkin, is far from a final process, but it has milestones that can be pointed to in one's journey of change. It is worth bearing in mind that each such story is always somewhat unique. The creator does not repeat a single piece of music but always creates a fantastic journey and experience.
Anyway, the mystery that hit my being in that story in that book triggered an irreversible change, and what followed has been just dealing with the consequences, or instead even trying to come to terms with them. It's an analogous example, where initially, the outlines of a puzzle picture are drawn throughout your life, and then the pieces start falling out of it, leaving nothing in their place. The mind loses itself trying to replace the details but to no avail.
It's like you're among people, but no one understands your process, including yourself. You understand it, but you don't understand what stage it is in when it ends, starts to transform, really nothing at all, especially when you think you've figured it out.
This strange procedure is celebrated at the heart of all religions, the mystics. In Estonia, I discovered it described in extraordinary depth at the Arvo Pärt Center. Who is not familiar with the name? Arvo is the most famous Estonian, a living legend in classical music. Let’s say something like living Beethoven, and I´m not kidding.
I found exceptional pearls when I delved into the lives and writings of the saints on the temple wall in the heart of Arvos center. It is a tiny Russian orthodox chapel devoted to his teachers.
Our national treasure, Arvo, has dedicated his life's work to depicting this process - the journey and liberation of one’s soul.
You don't have to look far. The great thing is that during the process of finding it, you can go around the entire globe, universe, and beyond, then discover it publicly exposing itself under the pine trees in your close neighborhood. This is the case with this freedom thing. So simple that it's mind-boggling and incomprehensible.
Annihilation by God.
It sounds cute, but giving your body to death is hundreds of times easier than staying in it through the process. And it's also the best thing that could happen simultaneously—experiential passage through the essence of duality.
Anyway, if one day you suddenly wake up with the realization that this process has ended, you are gone, and what remains is God in you and You in God, then your intoxication and gratitude will be boundless.
The grapes of my body can only become wine
After the winemaker tramples me.
I surrender my spirit like grapes to his trampling
So my inmost heart can blaze and dance with joy.
Although the grapes go on weeping blood and sobbing
"I cannot bear any more anguish, any more cruelty."
The trampler stuffs cotton in his ears: "I am not working in ignorance.
You can deny me if you want; you have every excuse,
But it is I who am the Master of this Work.
And when through my Passion you reach Perfection,
You will never be done praising my name."
- Rumi
God has a great sense of humor, exceptionally tasteful. In honor of this tasteful humor, let's call the upcoming event -
Drawing Loves 40 Rules by 40 into Seram's heart.
Anyway, according to this distorted calendar, which someone sucked out of the pen of citizen Gregorius, this miraculous event should occur on 14.11.2022.
Well, let's play along with this "right date" game; that's how it is done on this planet. It will probably be the last time for me. However, I intend to calculate it in the future based on the lunar cycles.
This body was born with the black moon ab 40 years back, and this " lightning event" happened about a week ago, during the black moon. I spent an evening with the feeling that I was done now; my body couldn't stand this process anymore and I asked once more -
God, please, liberate me. I have no desire to be in this body, life, or anything related. I´m so done.
This world is just a sea of dead corpses, trying to portray Life. I´m so bored of this. I see no real desire for liberation, just a hunger for more safety or a little sip of relief. Send me somewhere people yearn for extacy and really go for it. Take me away from the land of the dead. Or give me a gift to shake them up from their boring dramatic dreams. To break the reality they live in. Otherwise, I´m done. Not interested, if I´m not used as well for Divine splendor..
I went to bed shortly after that and woke up in total ecstasy after having the absolute best super lucid dream I've ever experienced. These clear and clarifying dreams are now a continuation in the following days, and the accompanying ecstasy takes all kinds of exciting forms in my days. Also, I tuly can’t sleep much anymore. I sit and laugh alone for hours at night.
I can now say with certainty this existing reality will soon start twisting from fascinating angles, through, over, and under.
And if before in my life I have ingested something, breathed, danced myself "into ecstasy," now it is simply here. Day, and night, neither arise nor disappear. It waves only softly, sometimes bringing laughter and tears from joy, beauty, tenderness, and being and just being.
I want to celebrate, not directly the birth, but rather that this something is still here. Me? Or not me? Nothing.
And then there is another interesting phenomenon: a more profound knowledge of why I am here. What is the secondary task of my being? Well, at least for the next period of life. There is much more here that God does not show yet. Don't want to know; you don't need to. What is here is already so exciting.
Anyway, it seems that everything so far has been just preparation, looking at pictures in God's picture book, and marking your preferences. Then the natural death of the viewer and now life in the picture book itself.
It looks like it will be what we celebrate -
Life in a supercharged embrace? Guess? Who knows? I can't say in advance anymore; I can only guess. I don't know from experience what that means, I think. I let the words flow by themselves. What does a fetus know about life, right?
Maybe we still celebrate birth because wise men have said that there are two birthdays in a person's life - when you are born and when you understand why.
However, the whole point of this previous story is that you come from the place where you come from because you care about me and what I carry with me as myself.
I´m going to share very intimate insights, knowledge, stories, and where I see my journey taking me next. I wish there was pure support for it here because it's starting to shake the hard reality to its core.
In general, when I'm around people, I tend to be quiet and share my visions and insights when asked.
Fortunately or unfortunately, this happens relatively rarely if someone truly asks.
So, I´m just gonna behave like you truly asked and have enjoy letting the lions run wild.
On this day, I would like to share from the bottom of my heart how I have understood things and felt without filters during this entire life, with all the sincerity and love that is here.
To illustrate, here are some thoughts on the statements of the pious saint Siluan of Athos (saint from the wall of the Pärt Center temple):
In creating us as individuals, that is, as free beings, He first saw the possible and perhaps inevitable tragedy of man. Calling us out of the darkness of non-being with the zest of His destiny, He throws us into the unfathomable expanses of cosmic Being.
There is no deeper conflict than that between Christ and the world in which we live.
Until quite recently, the word of Christ was passed on in such a way that it would not burn anyone. But now, when the Earth is filled with the despair of almost every person who lives in this atmosphere of distressed cries and cries of distress, the word of salvation must be spoken without hiding the tragedy of the road ahead of us.
We live in an age when, as exemplified by the events of our century, the tragedy of our fall becomes visible.
I daresay it will be an exceptional event because we even have a unique bunch of aliens with cosmic consciousness from the wide world joining in. In my humble experience, several of them are some of the most exceptional artists, creators, singers, and sound magicians I have come across. To be quite precise, they come here for another reason, but some stay with us for a few days longer.
Since I like to live in a way that is not customary, and the 14th is a Monday, what could be more exciting than starting the event at 10:00 am? I have never received or seen an invitation to a birth celebration beginning on Monday at 10:00 🤣
Let's break the habit.
My lovely soul brother Tauno Kangro kindly offered his home as the venue for this beautiful event. This place has become very close to my heart, I feel very at home there, and Tauno has become a very close and essential companion.
So the Divine show starts 14.11.22 at 10:00 a.m. in Laitse Granite Villa, built by sculptor Tauno Kangro and is state of the art on its own. I doubt you have ever been in such an authentic Vikings Kings castle.
www.graniitvilla.ee ( in this case, real life is way, way more vibrant than those poor pics. Rare in this world, I know )
Everyone knows when it's the best time, whether it's morning, day, or night to arrive, and the event ends; God knows when.
BUT … I have seen a vision, that this process is a mix of spontaneously self-creating audio/visual art; Divine storytelling; standup comedy; most interesting spiritual wisdom lectures, opening the backgrounds through my own story and various disciplines, astrology, ancient pearls of wisdom and comic realizations; art workshop; modeling; painting; dance; poetry and only God knows what else.
A kiss of Divine.
You can take parts of it or the whole, I leave the size of your cup yours to decide.
In theory, you can also stay overnight in the villa, but we have many foreigners and accommodate them here in priority order. And I've noticed that we tend to worry more about sleeping than living. So come and live out your wild nature!
The thing about me is that sleep is gone; I sleep for a few hours at night, and then I sit alone like an owl, joking and laughing. You're never alone with schizophrenia; that's excellent news. To illustrate - it is currently 3:12 in the morning. I went to sleep at midnight, turned from side to side for a few hours, fell asleep for an hour, and just woke up because I was completely rested.
I might turn into Zorro soon. Saving the night from evil, rescuing all those beautiful women so I could earn their love and appreciation. Kidding. Only fat and ugly men. So you are all saved.
Regarding lodging and other household matters, I don't know much about who will come and when—not going to do anything about it either. Therefore, everything goes into spontaneous formation. We must be like 50 - 80 souls + aliens from outer space. They don't sleep, and they don't eat either; we start rolling the best pieces of earthly life with them at night and laughing ourselves to bits. By the way, they are blue, I guess. Just in case, I'll say, in case you went through this question, subconsciously, the answer is blue.
Anyway, I'm trying to avoid "creating a logistician position" for myself; I want to be HERE and NOW, not even remembering I had a phone on that day, the days before it, and the days after it. I promise to serve you Royally in the future. This time it just is like it is.
It’s going to happen; we, the court at the “Castle in the "Skies,” starts functioning correctly, then with the assistance of those 108 virgins that are going to operate it, it will manifest.
TO BE BROUGHT ALONG
You can bring something you want to share with others, especially if you have an instrument. There are still quite a few of them here, and those who know how to play them. All kinds of equipment, too, where to insert wires. You can also bring your own. Co-creation can be adequately practiced.
"Collective theme - Jamm of the Multiverse."
With food and drink, take what you want to share along with others. Bring what your favorite is and what you would like to introduce to others from the bottom of your heart. Only the best can happen that way. By all accounts, I do not consume alcohol; please do not bring it. Otherwise, we might get sober and severe. Not good.
If you want to give me a gift, please consider that at this point in my life, I have not created a home, and life fits in a suitcase. And it's already full to the brim.
I emphasize this because I have experienced on several occasions that despite the precise expression, there can still be extensive deviations.
So, let's go through the background and explanation.
I would be very grateful if you could fit the gift into an envelope. I lost or gave away everything during this process; only a few clothes, personal belongings, an outdated smartphone, a computer, and a great void remain. My stomach is full, my mind is happy, my heart is open, the invitation list to visit is longer than I can serve, and I feel at home pretty much everywhere. So everything is fine, you don't have to worry - he has nothing.
Monk is well. And the whole world is his home. I feel that an exciting journey and the expansion of life into entirely new horizons are ahead, which I intend to enjoy to the fullest.
As Jesus said, to gain all, you must lose all. In addition, from my side, when everything is lost, it is much more liberating than it might seem on the way there. God takes what you don't need and leaves what you already have, but you may not have noticed - you are at your best.
At the same time, this "because life in the material world, compared to several years I spent in loneness in nature" is quite resource-intensive, so looking at this falling apart phone while fingers typing on the screen, it must be said that it needs to be replaced rather sooner than later. Therefore, we call the project collection campaign "Union Maintenance Fund" and set up a collection box on site.
Based on the experience of the coming years, I think it is necessary to add - please do not try to overuse your creativity and give something as a gift; you believe it can be wasted on me / on dark days. I've had them before, but now we move forward in pure Divine ecstasy, and we don't get this fuel from this universe.
As strange as it may seem, my roof has already completely "blown off" I spend the days in holy intoxication purely in the expansion of God's kingdom in my heart. If the fund accumulates more richly, we will invest its content in digital tools, which will help either capture or amplify the flood of creativity gushing out of me in artistic directions. By the way, this image landscape is also part of the new creation here.
Be warned; I'm just getting warmed up! Let's amp it up now! At least I have something to do at night besides joking alone and walking around the house.
In reality, you are the gift. Otherwise, I wouldn't send it to you. You left a beautiful mark on my heart in your sweet way last period. Either by doing something or by not doing it. And then once again, I will go over the vital thing to still establish the zone - if, despite my denials, at any moment you lose vigilance in your mind and find yourself calling or writing to me before the discussed event with some urgent question, then the reality is as follows, just for your information:
I am conducting a covert operation with the previously mentioned space aliens from Nov 11 - 13. Since they're about as confused as I am, let your imagination run wild about what we're up to.
For cosmic jokes, my smartphone is turned off. We communicate telepathically, and if it doesn't work that way for you, you have to be satisfied with these guidelines and act as you see fit.
But, yet again, there is one communication channel available, add yourself there, we use it to send if there is some urgent notice and during the events, pics, videos, and all to be posted. So all value shared - telegram app group, click on link.
Yes, there is a sauna and cold plunge; please don't bring swimming suits. Otherwise, Tauno won't let you into the sauna. I've been watching him in action here, and he's shown an evident resolve in this regard. 🤣
I hope you were able to munch some laughs while reading this and, simultaneously, look deeper into yourself; what is being reflected here in reality?
I see you when I see you, and you see me. We, who visit or don't see 🤷♂️
Joonas, Seram, and seven generations of ancestors, who bear the collective name - Saks, for simplification.
And then David, too, a name I was given recently by Prophet Benjamin. So that you know, In addition to everything, I also got baptized by him. Highly recommend.
You shall be recognized as King before the Kings, King David, and live a truly remarkable life in the service of your people.
So said the priest, rabbi, and prophet, Benjamin. So far, I’ve heard that his prophecies have come true.
That man is a living legend himself, with Jesus-like powers and presence.
Looking forward, maybe we'll give birth to a king here instead. Great stuff anyways; let's see what's going to happen,
David Jonah Seram Saks
I wonder how many of these names can be accumulated in one lifetime. Is it like this game of enlightenment that you feel the more you can collect all kinds of different concepts, understandings, and isms, the more enlightened you become?
Simply yours,
Seram